Your confusion and frustration comes from not being on your intended path. You are chasing goals that are not in alignment with what you came to this plane to do. It is this blind struggle that causes you to feel lost.
Your soul knows there are plans in place and it may be putting some pressure on you to open up to your higher self. Your constant mind loops are interfering with the guidance of God and spirit. It is like you living your life as you wish when there is another life waiting to be lived in your subconscious. It doesn’t lie dormant. It pops up and tries to get your attention. Your soul may be saying, “You’re supposed to be over here.” You know there is some type of conflict but you don’t fully understand what it is.
This ambivalence gives you feelings of unrest, irritability, confusion and being unsettled. The peace that you find through meditation is your temporary alignment with your spiritual self. As soon as you allow your self will to be foremost again, you lose the serene connection that you made. This could be a trigger. If you continue to practice mindfulness you would be able to maintain that sense of peace for much longer. Then, your intended life would be brought to you and changes could be made to your life direction.
This positive direction would be cyclical if you were to see when you have diverted away from your life chart and make adjustments to again find that peace and serenity. Watch for the clues that you are lost again and regain your chart. It is a part of daily self-care. You would lose those uncomfortable feelings of frustration and be grounded with a firm connection to God and spirit.
Finding and maintaining your chart would change the course of your life. You may miss some of your more ego-based, impulsive needs, but the contentment will be a reward in itself. Your mind would follow the word of God and you would feel your purpose. You would be fulfilled with the thoughts, emotions and actions of being in alignment with God.
You may look at others around you and recognize the same pressures that you used to react to. The daily drama would escape you and everything will seem possible. Stress would be replaced with purpose and positivity. You may even lose the lust that you have for material things and money. Having no more than what you need may be enough.
It is all about perspective. Did God send Jesus here to build mansions and amass immense wealth? No. He sent Him here to heal others, bring ideas of peace, encourage forgiveness and give you the knowledge that there is so much more after this earth life.
Modesty and moderation. Leading through words and actions. Looking upon others with love and the desire to heal them. Unconditional love and the absence of judgment. Giving of yourself to those less fortunate. These phrases are you. They are the foundation and essence of who you are. Did you believe that We were describing Jesus? Yes. You are a child of God and you are here for the same purpose.
Do you find this comforting or unsettling? No part of those phrases are difficult or impossible. It is all possible and your connection with God and the Universe will be secure. No more confusion. No more struggle to find your path and maintain it. No questions about who you are and why you are here.