Well Spring of God's Love

The transition is peaceful and melodic. The struggle that you feel each and every day is actually not your own. For whatever reason you carry around energy, injury and debris from many years and many lifetimes. You think that the world weighs down upon you because this is your lot in life. This is completely untrue. The deadening weight is energy that you suppose is yours.

“I suppose this is my punishment.” For what?

“I suppose I am a beast of burden and I must carry the weight of others as well as may own.” Why?

“I suppose I haven’t found the key to life so this pressure will not resolve.” Really?

“I suppose everyone feels this horrible weight just like I do.” Not really.

You need meditation, healing, energy cleansing exercises, relief and forgiveness for yourself and others. The pressure that you have chosen to carry may also be released. 90% of it is not even yours! Why have you chosen to bear this dark, heavy burden upon your actual being? This is not metaphorical weight. This is actual stress, pressure, dark and clingy energy usually upon your shoulders, neck, upper back or chest. You have spent much of this life collecting this burden for no real reason.

Guilt may be the #1 cause. Shame for what you believe is a shortfall in your success, faith, job, financial status, family structure, sexual orientation, mental health, visible prosperity… may be another. The oppressive expectations of others may be yet another cause.

You do not have to walk each day of this life with shame, guilt or feelings of failure. None of it is essential. None of it is true. If you notice these 3 causes are not something that you have decided for yourself. They are causes that other people’s opinions have been placed upon you and you kept them. When these thoughts of shame, guilt and failure started, the people who looked upon you probably didn’t even judge you so harshly. You noticed their attention and YOU assigned a negative reason behind it. Then, decided to spend your life proving it to yourself over and over again.

You do not have to carry this burden. It is ok to let go and love yourself. Examine each negative emotion and decide if this is truly how you feel about yourself or did it develop from someone or somewhere else? If it isn’t yours, don’t keep it. How do you feel about your success, job, money, relationships, visible prosperity, appearance…? It is ok to be happy without anyone else cheering for you. You do not need anyone else to love and believe in yourself.

It is also possible to keep the people who you love but release their opinions about you. If your sister is hostile and accusatory, step back and meet her only in ways that she is less problematic. Then, if she unloads on you, let it go. She obviously has her own reasons to dump on her family and friends. That doesn’t make her right. Any person can be managed more positively. Remember to step back and release.

People at work, at your child’s school, in the grocery store… don’t let them define you without you at least deciding if they have a point or not. It is called testing. Test what they have to say about you. Is it true? Ok, maybe they have a point. Is it false? Let it go. Please don’t unleash an angry torrent upon those who you love and deal with frequently. This is not God’s way. Be solemn and appreciative. Either understand their need to alter your life and take their advice or let it go because it is misguided. These are your choices. You must not get up into someone’s face and stand up for yourself. This is not strength. This type of behavior is as misguided as theirs.

You keep your strength more easily when you know your thoughts, opinions and tendencies and resist anyone pulling you out of your comfort. KNOW who you are and stay steady. Be content with yourself and test any changes that you or others wish you to make.

Forcing yourself to belong will only cause heartache. Like who your are and nurture that part of you that seeks spirituality. If you step back from some people, you may also find some new ones to fill your life up again. By knowing yourself and being true to who you want to be will create more opportunities to meet people of like-mind. Communion. Sharing of ideas and faith. You won’t feel so out-of-place if you find some people who believe the same things that you do.

The first step is to release all of that pressure that you feel. Get a cleansing, meditate, try some positive visualization. Shake it off and resist the urge to pick it back up. Imagine someone who starts their day by meditating, praying and asking for Divine guidance. The backpack that was full of rocks yesterday has been cleared of any rocks through this morning self-care practice. Then, this hopeful, excited person spends the rest of the day picking up all of those same rocks and putting them back in their backpack. By the end of the day they are weary and feeling unloved and misunderstood. They lay the backpack at the foot of their bed and fall into a restless sleep. Then they wake up… you guessed it. They cleanse, purify and meditate for this new day.

How sad. The intent of being spiritual and full of grace was outweighed by the habit of carrying around negative thoughts, emotions, opinions and judgments. It is even sadder that at this point in time, you do not cleanse and clear yourself daily. So, instead of unloading that bag of rocks, you simply carry them always. Never putting them down.

Step one is to realize that you carry energy around that is stagnant, dark and clingy. Step two is to cleanse, purify and release that energy daily. Step three is to resist picking up all of that negative energy again. Step four is to allow yourself each new day free from anyone’s attitudes, judgments and opinions. This is how hope is born. Rely on yourself and believe what you believe to be true. Allow you to define who you are and what goals will fulfill your life.

Refuse to carry around someone else’s negative energy. Give yourself the gift of self-love and self-care. Shed any unwanted energy and believe in yourself enough to not carry it around again!

Guilt, shame, and someone else’s unrealistic expectations are not “of God.” True grace has no room for such judgments.